If I told you a secret you won't tell a soul will you hold it and keep it alive? 'Cos its burning a hole and I can't get to sleep and I can't live alone with this lie...

So look up. Take it away don't look down the mountain. If the world isn't turning your heart won't return anyone, anything, anyhow...

So take me, don't leave me. Take me, don't leave. Baby, love will come through. It's just waiting for you.

Well I stand at the crossroads of highroads and lowroads and I got a feeling it's right. If it's real what I'm feeling there's no makebelieving the sound of the wings of the flight of a dove.

Happy B-day to me

PEOPLE ARE CRAP.

My Papa gave me a £200 gift card (at least four centuries ago) to spend at Harrod's and I just felt like going yesterday (It's so absolutely crap they do open on Sunday) So we spent the whole day trying on and on loads and loads of stupid shitty clothing. I'm not gonna write everything we did down but would you get used to the idea of what I mean if I say we were two looooong loooong looooong hours choosing a skirt? Alrighty then.

We got the unbelievable amount of  £160 and went to pay. The smiley shop assistant (She was butt ugly) finally went "Here you are" gave me the rubbish bag (I'm not being sarcastic or anything else it's just they do look like rubbish bags) and went on "Oh, ma'am I'm afraid you can't break this gift card up! You must spend it in one go but just...er...wait a minute, hang on there please..." and she left us waiting for what it seemed to me...half an hour. Then she came back just to tell us "Well, I've asked if you can break it up and I'm sorry but it's not possible ma'am"

Crikey! So? So???

She even dared to put her lovely finger on the sore spot and went "You have to buy something £40 worth" and then Claire sang "Because I'm worth it" I was angry but not enough to have a laugh. Well...it was a fifty minutes laugh indeed.

Oh God bugger it!

When I was about to commit suicide the ma'am went "Gor' blimey! (I swear) just buy a CD or something!" Righty. On top of that shitty way to organize things she was rushing me. I was really fed up so I lent Claire the rest of the money and went for a coffee.
By the way she said "Gor' blimey!" I bet she thought we were in 18th century and she was a lady in a tight spot and so on...
Claire told me she (the shop assistant not Claire) was out to lunch. I wonder if we had had to talk to her on a Shakespeare way. I mean something like "I payeeth ye with me gift card Missee".

Anyway Papa the next time you want me to buy some clothing please give me the money and I would be pleased to spend it all at Camdem's. You know...er...those expensive...er... department stores...

See you palz! =)

Please, remember me
Happily
By the rosebush laughing
With bruises on my chin
The time when
We counted every black car passing
Your house beneath the hill
And up until
Someone caught us in the kitchen
With maps, a mountain range,
A piggy bank
A vision too removed to mention
But

Please, remember me
Fondly
I heard from someone you're still pretty
And then
They went on to say
That the pearly gates
Had some eloquent graffiti
Like 'We'll meet again'
And 'Fuck the man'
And 'Tell my mother not to worry'
And angels with their gray
Handshakes
Were always done in such a hurry
And

Please, remember me
At Halloween
Making fools of all the neighbours
Our faces painted white
By midnight
We'd forgotten one another
And when the morning came
I was ashamed
Only now it seems so silly
That season left the world
And then returned
And now you're lit up by the city
So

Please, remember me
Mistakenly
In the window of the tallest tower call
Then pass us by
But much too high
To see the empty road at happy hour
Leave and resonate
Just like the gates
Around the holy kingdom
With words like 'Lost and Found' and 'Don't Look Down'
And 'Someone Save Temptation'
And

Please, remember me
As in the dream
We had as rug-burned babies
Among the fallen trees
And fast asleep
Aside the lions and the ladies
That called you what you like
And even might
Give a gift for your behavior
A fleeting chance to see
A trapeze
Swing as high as any savior
But

Please, remember me
My misery
And how it lost me all I wanted
Those dogs that love the rain
And chasing trains
The colored birds above there running
In circles round the well
And where it spells
On the wall behind St. Peter's
So bright with cinder gray
And spray paint
'Who the hell can see forever?'

Dave And Sain

Hard times...

Enjoy bitch!

Oh, God, Claire I know what you mean...they're so fuckin' cute!

Just like Heaven

Show me how you do that trick
The one that makes me scream she said
The one that makes me laugh she said
And threw her arms around my neck
Show me how you do it
And I promise you I promise that
I'll run away with you
I'll run away with you
Spinning on that dizzy edge
I kissed her face and kissed her head
And dreamed of all the different ways I had
To make her glow
Why are you so far away? she said
Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you
That I'm in love with you

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream

Daylight licked me into shape
I must have been asleep for days
And moving lips to breathe her name
I opened up my eyes
And found myself alone alone
Alone above a raging sea
That stole the only girl I loved
And drowned her deep inside of me

You
Soft and only
You

Lost and lonely
You
Just like heaven

I love this Cure's song. I wanted you to know, Dave, that you are the only one who can make me laugh with all those tricks. We'll run away one day, love, I promise. (And I promise you, I promise that I'll run away with you...I'll run away with you...)

Claire, sweetie, you are the best friend I've ever had. You've got the biggest part of my heart. You've given your friendship to me and I don't know if I've given you enough. If so I hope you know how to forgive me, 'cause I love you so much...I do enjoy those sleepovers we do once a week!

Soad, crazy boy, you've been looking out for me so many years...Yesterday I was studying and suddenly a thought came to my mind. It was about that time we were 8 years old (or so) and we were at Robbie's birthday and you put two straws into your nose and you couldn't take them out later. We all laughed at you and you started crying something like 'Hey, you stunts! stop laughing at me! I'm gonna hit you when I take out this stupid straws! Since then we've been friends....It's amazing how time goes by...it was 12 years ago at least! I'm the only one who can call you Matthew!

Mel...Well you said this wasn't necessary but I think you are one of my best friends even if I went too far with you. You know I'm really sorry and you should know too that David doesn't forget. He says that's what I deserve. I hope you forgive me one day.

David. I don't really care what you may be thinking now about me because I like you even if you hate me though  =) I don't know if you realized that I was in love with you. I know it's not an excuse but if you are trying to forgive me and you don't know what to do you should think about all that time we spent together in Glastonbury. I did really have a great time with you even if we didn't know each other. When we got lost you tried to calm me down telling jokes, making that funny song up and teaching me Spanish. We didn't find the gang till midnight but we didn't waste the day (unless not me) because you were by my side. I can't say anymore. I know you love Mel and I know I love Dave. And we are friends. And that's all.

Lovely Jess! It's been worth getting into university! Thanks for helping me with all that shit about CLIMATE! You're such as the queen of climates or the queen of the things I can't do. Thank you for those fantastic mid-morning snacks and for those 'caffeine-nights' studying.

Abbie. The queen of Drama. You're gonna be a star one day. You're a talented actress and we are a jammy gang which is the perfect mix.

Well...that's all for today. I love you too much bunnies!

XoXo Sain <3

Merry Xmas!!

Woah! I hope u all've had a fantastic Xmas Eve's day. I was really chuffed to go out cos i didnt want to spend the night wiz my family but i had no dash =( (i must say i was chessed off working ) we took some food n went to trafalgar square to fool round. We had loads of scrummy peanut butter (i dont really like it but i was peckish)

We met Mel when we were walkin round Belgrave n seemed 2 bgobsmacked. She was waitin for her parents. She wore a very beautiful black dress and her hair looked really nice =D so we  arranged to meet her and David after the dinner at St. Jame's Park =) but they didnt come and we were waitin till 1.30 when we decided 2 go 2 Soad's premises- i guess they didnt come cos they were feelin comfortable in that  swanky restaurant. By the way ive met David's sis! Dave told me bout her but i didnt know what the hell he was talkin bout. Shes cute n seems to be fragile (dont ask cos i dunno why but she does) or shes goin to break down or something lke that. She was wiz his bf ( he may be 5 years older at least!) and he's hot hot hot hot hot!!! and he has very very strong arms (oh my god what a man!!) hes got  dark hair and green eyes and strong voice and personality (yay!!) what a pity we spent only 5 minutes wiz them.

Dave has given me a bunch of flowers for Christmas day! youre loooooovely Dave!!! I love you so much! <3 but youre such a daft too cos you were gutted cos "You had no dash for something more expensive" I love flowers ya kno! you neednt to give me anything!

I LOVE YOU

XoXo Sain <3